Aurora

bamtre @ 2009-01-12T15:06:00

2009-01-12T23:00:26Z

So I've decided I want to graduate early, with the rest of my class, instead of in the fall with the new class. So to do this I have to take on five extra courses on top of what I'm doing, finish that, and my practicum before March 31st. I will somehow manage to do this, and continue my 3.8 GPA. AND on top of that I'm going to manage to hit 110 wpm, and get an award for that before I graduate. I am determined to do this.

My teacher told me my mark for the research project we did over the christmas break. 99.3%! I'm so happy. And she said that I gave new meaning to the saying "A student putting themselves into their work", since I used pictures that they took of my insides during my operation in early December, topped with the fact I went to school only TWO days after the surgery, everyone was suprised. They expected me to take time off, but I couldnt afford to and fall behind. The only downside to the surgery was finding out that I need one more. I suppose it is a positive as well, since it will fix me for good so it my be possible to have children in the future, so that the adhesions and scars from the previous surgery last November wont hinder it, and I wont be in constant pelvic pain any longer. I'm still waiting to hear from that specialist who's supposed to fix it though. Dont know when I will get an appointment with him/her.

In other news, two of my friends got engaged, one from school, one I've known from FFXI, and the latter is also pregnant, though that happened after the engagement. Another one of my close friends is also having her wedding in June. It sucks I dont have a date to it, but ah well. C'est la vie :p And I'm still not sure if Emmet is coming to visit in febuary or not. He says he is.. but I'm not holding my breath. Sorry hun, but I dont want to get my hopes up again.

Also I'm pissed off at my cousin's sort of boyfriend. Well not exactly boyfriend, but he's her ex, but he says he's still in love with her, yet he wont break up with current gf. So he's messing around with the both of them. Grr. Hate that.

3 more hours of school, better get back to work.

borowed from sevtaru. YES I AM ALIVE BTW

2009-01-10T00:22:18Z

If the person you liked signed onto your MySpace right now and read your messages would they be mad?
Maybe.

Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
Yes *cough* Seth *cough*.

How many times a week do you go on Facebook?
Daily.

What is wrong with you right now?
My bowel is attached to my ovary, too many scars inside. And I'm lonley.

What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
"mhmphrgh no".

Do you love anyone?
Yes.

Do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?
Love hugs.

What's the one thing that always gets you through the day?
I dont think there's just one thing.

Have you ever faked sick?
Yep, but not recently.

Did you enjoy your weekend?
Um.. Not really, it was too snowy.

Do you like your first name?
Yep.

Do you regret doing something today?
Not yet no..

What did you realize today?
That you can never wash off all the germs off your hands.

Do you have friends you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
Yes.

How many hours did you sleep last night?
Uh.. 9 i think?

Have you ever cried while in the shower?
Last time i cried in the shower was after I found the raunchy PM's between Kei and Slutri and she had said that she would leave us be if that's what I wanted, and he said he would leave her in Illinois and have her parents pick her up. Then lied about that.. then he said when he got back to Lousiana he would send her home on greyhound, which he lied about again. And expected me to believe they were not going to date or sleep together during this whole thing. 3 strikes you're both out of respect.

Bet you're missing someone now?
Yeah. =(

Do you get along with girls?
Some.. girls.

What were you doing this morning at 7:00 AM?
sleep.

Do you wear the seat belt in the car?
If I remember.

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
rice crispy square

What are you listening to right now?
Nothing.i.

Current mood?
Meh.

Do you want to see someone right now?
:( yes..

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
For those who deserve it..

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain guy or girl?
Yup.

Are you warm or cold?
Warm

Last time you saw snow?
Today.

Where have you lived throughout your life?
Vancouver, White Rock, Calgary, Victoria.

Do you have any piercings?
2 earrings.

How do you treat someone when you are angry with them?
Define angry. Angry because they did something unforgiveably horrible? Or angry because they did something stupid like blow you off or something.

Are you currently frustrated with someone?
Yeeeees.

Next vacation you’re going on?
I'm not sure.

What do you do when you get mad?
Try to do something to distract myself.

What irritates you?
Liars, cheaters.

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Spring.

Who's the last girl you talked to?
Allison.

Do you miss anyone from your past?
Sort of..

Do you wish you lived a different life?
No I am thankful for the life i do hve..

Do you currently like anyone?
I think that much is obvious.

How old is the first person on your top friends?
26

If somebody liked you, what would be the best way for them to tell you?
Just tell me and we can deal with it.

Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else?
Yeah, np.

Has anyone upset you in the last week?
My mother.

Do you believe every one deserves a second chance?
Not everyone deserves it.

Who was the last person to call you?
Uh.. Emmet..

Do you think you've ever made a difference in anyone's life?
Yes.

When was the last time you saw your dad?
13 years ago.

There are 5 types of leukocytes. And my body is using a lot of them to heal..

2008-09-12T06:24:43Z

Leuk/o/ --> a combination form, meaning white
-cyte --> meaning cells
God, I've started Medical Terminololgy on Monday, the 8th. We are supposed to read Chapter 3, by Monday, then we are going over it in class. Also finish 10 examples of Transcription letters, and I need to make more flash cards. I am a little concerned how I am going to do in this program.. But we'll see.

I started school on the 25th of June. So far I've completed Student Success Strategies, Career Employment Services, a computer course, and now I've started Medical Terminology, and transcription. I believe I did well in SSS, and CES, CES was a lot of the hidden job market, interview strats, the questions asked in an interview, how to network yourself, and a project, mock interview that was taped, and a resume. The computer course, the two tests I got 95% on them both, and completed 4 projects. I'm not sure how I did on those. But I hope I'll find out soon.

Tomorrow, there's a BBQ at the school, I'm unsure whether I'll go or not. But otherwise classes are cancelled. Though if I do go in I could get some more keyboarding done, and a few other things done, and get some good BBQ.

So, it seems it's been a while since I wrote an update about myself. My back surgery happened on May 24th. It was supposed to happen on the 23rd. Basically I was scheduled for the 23rd at 2PM. But my neurosurgeon, had to do a continuation of an emergency surgery he started on Tuesday. The total surgery time for that patient was 23 hours. I cant imagine what he went through. Anyway, my mum and I sat in Pre-op, all ready to go, and waited and waited, til around 5PM til they said he wont be doing the surgery that day. I was so let down, because I was in so much pain from the 3 herniated discs in my lumbar spine. I asked If I was being sent home, and they said no, because he'd be doing surgery on me the next morning as an 'emergency surgery'. Anyhow, they moved me up to the spinal surgeon ward. Floor 9 was full of everone who had some kind of spinal surgery. Since I hadnt eaten since 6PM the night before. They gave me some food, that didnt end up staying down <.< The nurses and such were really nice about it, and helped me through being ill, and started me on an IV, to get me re-hydrated. And little snacks until midnight so that I wouldnt be sick. Just before 10 PM though, they came in and put in a catheder.. it was a new experience to me. VERY UNCOMFORTABLE! But it turned out to be really hepful after all. Next day i was woken up at 6AM, wheeled down to pre-op and then taken into the OR. Was put to sleep, and when I woke up I was in recovery, and in more pain. Anyway.. catheder helps with um.. you know.. stuff. The morning after surgery, they took out the catheder, because they wanted me to get up and move around a bit, and start using the toilet. Let me tell you, I've never experienced as much pain as I did getting up that day for the first time. It hurt so bad. I mean it would, wouldnt it? They removed bits of your spine! They only did a laminectomy. Removing a bit of the spine, to relieve pressure on spinal nerves. However they said I may need more surgery for my back again in a few years time. The recovery process over the first few days were really hard. It is still hard today. I'm not able to sit for long or bend, or sit in certain chairs, or in certain ways. The teacher's all know about my condition at school, so they're really understanding about it.

Also another problem I possibly have another tumor on my ovary. Goodie. I dont want more surgery.. I dont think I can handle it. I'm not strong enough

On a side note, I should start watching bleach again.. I stopped after that incident in 2007.. But I want to again.

Anyway, need to lay back down. Back starting to hurt.

Ask me any questions you want about the surgery, i'm more than happy to tell the /full/ story!

bamtre @ 2007-12-12T17:03:00

2007-12-13T01:05:39Z

And I never said you were a horrible person! if anything I sing praises about you. I was angry, and I have missed doing things with you. YOU KNOW that you doing stuff with your friends is more than fine with me, I just wanted some of that too.. You're not a horrible person. And I never ever will think that you are. You are the best guy I know.

bamtre @ 2007-10-27T11:33:00

2007-10-27T18:54:27Z

So I thought I had injured SI joint, but it turns out I have a large tumor on my hip bone. I guess I know why i've been in that much pain. So, the doctor has scheduled me for an ultrasound and a CT scan. I'm worried, but I'm not looking for pity. This is nothing compared to what some people have to go through. Even if it's malignant I'll fight. My aunt Fatima is my inspiration. I'd like it if Emmet was here with me through this.. but I guess i cant have that.

Hm.. other than that, my mom and I are going to Vegas for the long weekend, then few days after that my Ultrasound is scheduled. I still dont know when my CT is. Then at the end of December going to see Emmet hopefully.

Dear diary, it's been a while..

2007-10-03T21:05:41Z

Lets see, how is life going? My trip down to San Diego was pretty good. Other than all the many many hours of driving, and some crappy hotels *cough* SUN GOD LODGE in Taos,New Mexido.. >_> The place was literally falling apart, and we were put in the new building. I shudder at the thought of what the old building was like. One hotel in particular I loved was in Flagstaff, AZ. Inn suites, we got a suite, that had a jaccuzzi and it was huge! had a kitchen, living room, bedroom bathroom, jaccuzzi and all sorts of fun stuff. Meeting Em's parents went alright, though I dont think my mom and his mom get along right now ._. When we finally got back to San Diego, we visited the Wild Animal Park, which was fun and all, but it's not the greatest thing to do when you're running a fever, and dont realize why you're feeling so light headed and sick. My flights were okay too, except kind of crowded and noisy.

Since I've been back, been working like crazy, because we're switching to a new care system, so all the residents data and finacial stuff have to be inputted on the program. So basically i have to enter 140 people's basic info and finanacials. Then once that's all done, GO BACK, and enter all the medical info, assesments and stuff and learn how to do scheduling :D

Hm, this weekend is my mom's birthday and Thanksgiving, should be fun-ish. And I'm looking foward to December, when I go back to San Diego.

Other than that, I have a friend who keeps trying to instill doubt in my head about my relationship, an ex who keeps slandering me and twisting what really happened, making me out to be evil incarnate, and my mom who's overprotective, making it seem like all men are just after one thing, and that I'm stupid and naieve and shouldnt trust anyone, and trying to do a mind job on me. This is all slowly driving me crazy :/

bamtre @ 2007-08-13T20:03:00

2007-08-14T03:06:03Z

I'm glad you're looking at each new day like that. Stuff like that, however minor, helps you tremendously in becoming a stronger person.

Also, on a side note: How doe sa group with the name "Savage Garden" write a love song like that? :p

bamtre @ 2007-05-15T14:06:00

2007-05-15T21:09:43Z

Kitty! http://english.pravda.ru/photo/report/diving_tigers-1817/3/

bamtre @ 2007-05-13T15:56:00

2007-05-13T22:59:42Z

She's got nothing on you, babe.

bamtre @ 2007-03-30T16:22:00

2007-03-30T23:30:02Z

As virtuous men pass mildly away,
And whisper to their souls, to go,
Whilst some of their sad friends do say,
The breath goes now, and some say no:

So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear foods nor sigh-tempets
move.

'Twere profanation of our joys
To tell the laity our love.

Moving of the earth brings harms and
fears,

Men recokon what it did and meant,
But trepidation of the spheres,
Though greater far, is innocent.

Dull sublunary lovers' love
(Whose soul is sense) cannot admit
Absence, because it doth remove
those things which elemented it.

But we by a love so much refined,
That our selves know not what it is,
Inter-assured of the mind,
Care less eyes, lips and hands to miss.

Our two souls terefore which are one,
Though i must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to airy thinness beat.

If they be two they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two,
Thy soul the fixed foot, makes no show
To move but doth if th'other do.

And though it in the center sit,
Yet when the other far doth roam,
It leans and hearkens after it,
And grows erect as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must
Like the other foot, obliquely run;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun.

bamtre @ 2006-11-01T16:47:00

2006-11-01T23:47:49Z

Personal Journal and for Friends Onry ^_^/